The Unconventional WOMAN

How many times have you stopped and asked yourself this question?

And what made you stop and ask yourself this question?

I remember many years ago when I was struggling with thoughts that I am not that Perfect Mother that I wanted to be for my kids, that I am not the perfect child for my parents, that I am not the perfect partner…

It seemed to me that I wasn’t doing anything right – at that time, right meant PERFECT to me. And it seemed to me that any situation, any relationship in my life was there to confirm my opinion of not being good enough.

And it consumed me and made me feel tired almost all the time, but still I was pushing myself in every direction.

Then I took a parenting course and the first part was about self. Self-confidence, self-esteem, what beliefs we carry on from our childhood education, e.g. All of a sudden it was all about me. And that was the moment in which, for the first time, as an adult being part of a relationship and a parent, I stopped and asked myself: Who am I? What are my goals, are they the same as the last time I had some goals for myself? Do I even have any personal goals, besides being the perfect Mom, the perfect employee?! What happened with my passion to sing, to write, to dance? What it is that makes me I feel this urge to make everyone happy but not pay attention to my own needs? 

And, you know what? The first thing that came to my mind was…I was identifying myself only with the mother in me and I think most of us do that when we get the chance to hold our beloved children in our arms. It also became clear to me that all other aspects of my personality, the woman in me, the child in me, were all left behind. Even if I was taking good care of myself,  my image, I was dressed perfectly, I wasn’t in touch with my feminine side, my feminine energy, with myself.

It was that day that I just promised myself that I will never again forget about my own needs, desires, dreams, and goals. And I’ve started doing things for myself – you may think it’s selfish, but I don’t mean doing everything only for myself, but just allowing myself to do something just for me every time I felt the need to do that.

I’ve found out that I’ve never stopped loving to read, got the curiosity back and got eager to learn as much as I could about every subject that interested me at a particular moment, just for the fun of learning something new, found out that I’m one of those people who tends to follow the Universal laws just by following my intuition and that intuition is my superpower, that I can be very loving but also very cold depending on how the situation plays out…It was and still is a beautiful journey, one that I would love for you to also embark on, as it is liberating and meaningful for us as humans, for ourselves, and for the ones we care for.

When you know yourself, you feel empowered, you can love with meaning and without any fear, and you can bring joy to the ones around you just because you’re feeling good about yourself and that is something everyone around us feels at a deeper level.

So, I’m curious about what you have found about yourself!

Take some time alone and just write what comes to your mind about who you are.

If you don’t feel comfortable, don’t answer in here, but just do this exercise for yourself and only share with me how it felt like when faced with YOU you!

LOVE U